Being able to drive alone in my car gives me way too much thinking time. I have come to a conclusion that I am way too overly blessed. I have been blessed abundantly.
Everything from my parents, my houses, my school, my church, and everything in between, I have noticed how each piece is being put together. Not saying that life is easy, because it's not, but it sure does make it a lot easier when you are blessed abundantly.
I have been given so much over the past sixteen years of my life. My step dad randomly filling up my gas tank in my car, my mom making my lunch for school, my step mom doing my laundry when I'm super busy, my dad giving me money to use so I can go out to dinner with friends. The list does not end.
Where has the happiness of the world gone? I feel it vanishing through my fingertips each waking moment. Personally, I can feel school being the biggest issue of my stress; it gets old. Sometimes I really like school, and sometimes I really do not like school. The world has so much to smile about in its broken rhythms; why can't we smile when it is deserved?
Society has taught us to have a fear of rejection, a fear of having fear, a fear of failing, and a fear of being unconditional. It's irritating to live in this constant agonizing selfish world. All the time I just wish to have a love for everyone, and sometimes I wonder if people can see the love, or if it is just disguised. I hope masks can be revealed as the lives of each individual carry on, but only by the strength of the Holy Spirit can fear be diminished.
He is our song
Our music
and our melody
For He is our portion
and our flesh
Forever
(Psalm 73:26)
